As you know, if you read this blog, and surprisingly, people seem to do so, I have been going through STUFF (the thought of this made me watch the George Carlin bit on this very subject; highly recommended). Some of the sentimental STUFF I have put in photograph form online, just in case somebody, 100 years from now, if we survive as the human race, might find interesting, from a kind of personal and historical point of view. Just call me Ozymandias. I believe in eternal immortality, but I also like the idea of an earthly version in memory. Maybe it will work better for me than it did for Ozymandias. I'm not holding my breath, but I have this bug about trying. Of course, whether or not there is life after death (hint: I think there is), I won't probably care. I digress.
Some of the STUFF I have placed in a similar form on this blog, like my Dad's short short stories so that he won't be utterly forgotten. A whole lot I have given away to a Veteran's Group, the STUFF that actually can be used, clothes, jewelry, books, small furniture. I should note that the latter seems not to make a dent in my lingering STUFF. The condo still looks chock full of tchotchkes, each of which, upon review, is emotionally indispensable. I know, this reflects all sorts of psychological realities. Hey, we all got them! Take a look around your abode. Bet you are holding onto all sorts of ridiculous things.
One of those items I present to you today, both in photographic form and textual form. It's Freshman Year at Fordham University, the Bronx, New York, 1973, (that reality causes a groan!). I am in an English class and poetry is the current focus. We have an assignment to write on John Keats, "Ode on A Grecian Urn", particularly it seems on both the style and the content; no surprise. I was usually pretty good about doing my homework on time, and ahead of time. But if my memory serves, this was one of those flash assignments, like a pop quiz. I tended to do my homework in my room (by then we had been three years in an apartment that had two bedrooms, instead of one for a family of three), but that evening, I took to the galley kitchen and the small round particle board table. What I remember about the exercise was that it was one of those rare times in which something came easy to me, flowed into my head, and just came through the pen (and then my handwriting wasn't as awful), and I found myself actually enjoying the task. I got a good grade, and there was something comforting, even joyful that something I enjoyed doing, was appreciated.
Yes, I feel compelled to put it here, and if you want, just skip over it.
Djinna Gochis
English 15, Section 9
April 24, 1973
An understanding of "Ode on a Grecian Urn" requires knowledge that only a classical education could give, or, at least, a little research. With his allusions, Keats assumes that the reader has some prior conception of Greek life, art, myth and philosophy. An awareness of the extended allusions seems essential to the meaning and greater appreciation of of the ode.
By selecting as his subject, a Grecian urn, representative of a golden age of humanity, Keats effectively establishes his believe in the lasting perfection of human creation. The urn is symbolic of physical and spiritual beauty, suspended in time. The expressiveness of Greek art is the expressiveness of human kind. That such a thing was created by man seems proof of man's essentially lofty nature. Indeed, while he describes the intricacies of the painted figures (descriptive), he allows himself the freedom to tell the story of mankind, the persistence of the spirit and of human ideas (narrative).
The images themselves are remarkably real. All senses come into play while reading the poem. Once can see the forests and the maidens, chased by the gods in the growth. One can hear the pipes and smell the sweet flowers. It is even possible to feel the pulsation of life itself. The poet chooses his words well--the diction allows the pictures to come alive. Every detail is meticulously arranged--the picture is clear.
But what does the poet say? Each stanza has its own significance. The first tells of the joys of earth-bound living. There are two mythical stories--one of Daphne, who, scorning Apollo, was turned into a tree at Tempe and the other of the revelries of Pan (half-man, half-horse) and the nymphs at Oready. All life life to the fullest. They enjoy physical pleasures (a kind of deification of human pleasure these myths).
There is more than physical joy. There is the pleasure unbounded by time and space-the mind, the imagination. The youth will never grow old. The tree will never lose its foliage. Love will never fade for the young there pictured.
The third stanza is an extension of the second.. It is a development of the concept of the eternity of things beautiful--of art and of the mind.
The life of Greece will ever be remembered. Once the priests brought sacrifice to the gods. Once there existed an ancient town and its sleeping ancient inhabitants. All these will be preserved forever on the urn. Their memory lives. Herein lies the importance of art.
The fifth stanza draws Keat's thoughts through to a conclusion--neither unexpected nor startling. He merely reiterates that BEAUTY lives when each generation is dead and gone. It provided that (envied) sought after link with eternity, with immortality. Beauty is forever.
The meter seems to be generally iambic which represents perhaps the smoothness, the gentle flowing of time through eternity. The rhyme is partial and peculiar (ababcdedce). The stanzaic form is difficult to determine and required some research. It is apparently a rather unconventional form, praise as a feat. It is a combination of the quatrain (the first four lines) and the sestet (the last six lines, generally used in the Italian Sonnet).
The blatant metaphor, and the most famous is "Beaty is truth, truth beauty." It is difficult to interpret, but perhaps easy to misinterpret. It recalls the Platonic philosophy, the World of Forms, to which men strive. When a man seizes upon an IDEA, he has found Truth. When he has found TRUTH, he has also found the Good or Beauty. In reverse, when a man has found what is BEAUTIFUL, he has come to TRUTH. Such is the message of Keats.
This page I've carried around with me, how long--a bit over 51 years represents, essentially, freezes in time the kid at the kitchen table, age just 19, trying to consider the depths of a poem for a school exercise and who then never would have imagined herself sitting here, in California. At that point, the idea of leaving New York, or even the Bronx, had not yet really occurred to her. At that time and place, there had not yet been a diagnosis of her mother with a terminal cancer (that came just about two months later). That particular night, I seem to remember a peace as she wrote. Do I remember or do I imagine that my mother was feet from me preparing the dinner for our family triad. I know my father was not yet home. I was no doubt happy because Spring had arrived. I have always loved the arrival of the Spring, and the sense of coming out of an unsafe and dark cave. I know I felt good that night. Able.
And so, I have protected this little piece of paper more than any of the many other college things I maintained (until my recent purges). As I sit here writing, I am not sure I am going to let it go, even now, just now. No, I don't think I will. I will have to leave that to the person who gets rid of my remaining STUFF when that time (which I hope is not soon) comes!